Thriving Through Trials

It has been four months since I last wrote a blog—a period of much-needed introspection and healing. This time away was crucial as I sought to remain grounded in my faith in God, navigating the emotional and psychological challenges that had overwhelmed me. Early in this journey, my family and I faced a heart-wrenching decision: to abruptly leave Malawi, the country I had called home for 21 years. Though painful, this decision was vital for our safety and well-being.

During these months of silence, I have found deep gratitude for the unwavering support of friends, particularly my therapist, whose consistent Saturday check-ins have been a source of strength and guidance.

When I wrote my book, Refugee for Life: My Journey Across Africa to Find a Place Called Home, Malawi was that home—a place I had long sought. But two nights ago, I had a nightmare; I was back in Malawi, continuing my advocacy for refugee rights. Instead of the support I once felt, I was met with hostility from those who view my work as a threat. I awoke in terror, only to be comforted by the realisation that I was in Italy, not Malawi. Yet, sleep eluded me, and the dream returned the following night, bringing the same fear.

A home can indeed become a nightmare, and the pain of that transformation runs deep. I now face a choice: abandon my life’s purpose—to be a voice for the oppressed—or relinquish the comfort of “home” to pursue the mission I know I must fulfil. For me, this decision, though painful, is clear. I would rather leave everything behind and continue moving forward, even if it means stumbling toward the destiny that God has set before me. At the same time, I must resist the temptation to let cancel culture overshadow the beauty I once found in Malawi, even as I confront the nightmare that now exists.

Leaving behind what was once “home” is not a loss, but a courageous step toward the life we are meant to live. This is true not only in geographical transitions but also in overcoming unhelpful behaviours that have provided instant gratification. It requires the same bravery—to relinquish what is familiar or comforting in pursuit of something more meaningful and enduring.

I am reminded that many others face similar struggles—relationships that were once nurturing turning into sources of pain, work that once brought joy now becoming a burden… It’s not always easy to know the right path, but taking time to reflect and seeking the wisdom of others is crucial to staying true to oneself.

As I move forward, I hold onto the belief that our greatest trials often refine our deepest purpose, guiding us toward a destiny that is worth every sacrifice. With this in mind, I choose to keep moving forward, trusting that each step, no matter how daunting, is leading me closer to the life I am meant to fulfil.